18 June, 1911

Another blizzard — the weather is distressing. It ought to settle down soon, but unfortunately the moon is passing.

I wonder if that has anything to do with my mood?

Held the usual Morning Service but Hymns not quite successful today.

Tonight Atkinson has taken the usual monthly measurement. I do not think there has been much change.

12 May, 1911

Wind has been blowing hard all day, 30 - 60 mph.

Debenham gave a lecture tonight on elementary Geology - in preparation for his later lectures. I love Geology as a rule, but I was bored silly. Am worried silly about the Hut Point party being able to return. What if the ice keeps going out in the strait? What if they cannot come back to us, nor us to them? How will they survive the winter? And all because I wanted them to experience a little Polar life. It's on my head and conscience if aught happens to them. I'm sure they curse me underneath their breath. I can't eat and I can't sleep. All I want is sleep.

I can feel a depression coming on.